- Him: Naw, the more I trust someone, the less I allow my logical brain to preside over my decisions, sexual or otherwise. Another reason I'm avoiding relationships at the moment. They seem to trigger my heart and my little head into controlling what I do as opposed to my big head which has gotten me where I am today.
- Me: I mean as long as u smart with who you trust, I don't see that as a problem... Now trust a manipulative crazy then you got problems, and possibly an std
- Him: You're the first one I ever really trusted. The other occasion was just an accidental popped condom. Totally Unintentional.
My only concern is maintaining friendships, both you and my sister as well as you and me. I don’t see myself in a relationship any time soon so if we can keep this up without messing up those friendships then I’m all for it. I’m just scared cuz that hasn’t ended up that way in the past.
Naw, the more I trust someone, the less I allow my logical brain to preside over my decisions, sexual or otherwise. Another reason I’m avoiding relationships at the moment. They seem to trigger my heart and my little head into controlling what I do as opposed to my big head which has gotten me where I am today.
Well all I know is I am not in the market for a relationship anytime soon and I am not ever prepared for a long distance relationship.
I’m fine with either outcome. Do as you please. I certainly don’t wanna blow our cover but I’m not gonna act like I’m uninterested.
Drake feat. Jhene - July
I’m no where close to feeling it and I feel very guilty about it. What if it takes a year before I feel it? What kind of person does it make me if I never do? I refuse to be that person to hurt someone again, but to turn away at this point would be walking away from a possibility that this feeling may or may not occur. I feel bad that I can’t muster the courage to say it back - and mean it… I could tell him I love him, but to me, it is worse to lie than to not say it at all. He says it doesn’t bother him, but is he telling the truth? I know he wouldn’t intentionally lie to me, but he could be potentially lying to himself. I feel like he’s going too fast; his emotions tend to flood in rushes of waves, while mine trickles in like a leaky faucet. So how do I tell him to slow down without hurting his feelings? I have a strong feeling he’ll take it the wrong way if this request is presented to him, so until then, I will remain quiet with fear… but how long can I even do that?