My only concern is maintaining friendships, both you and my sister as well as you and me. I don’t see myself in a relationship any time soon so if we can keep this up without messing up those friendships then I’m all for it. I’m just scared cuz that hasn’t ended up that way in the past.
Well all I know is I am not in the market for a relationship anytime soon and I am not ever prepared for a long distance relationship.
I’m fine with either outcome. Do as you please. I certainly don’t wanna blow our cover but I’m not gonna act like I’m uninterested.
Drake feat. Jhene - July
I’m no where close to feeling it and I feel very guilty about it. What if it takes a year before I feel it? What kind of person does it make me if I never do? I refuse to be that person to hurt someone again, but to turn away at this point would be walking away from a possibility that this feeling may or may not occur. I feel bad that I can’t muster the courage to say it back - and mean it… I could tell him I love him, but to me, it is worse to lie than to not say it at all. He says it doesn’t bother him, but is he telling the truth? I know he wouldn’t intentionally lie to me, but he could be potentially lying to himself. I feel like he’s going too fast; his emotions tend to flood in rushes of waves, while mine trickles in like a leaky faucet. So how do I tell him to slow down without hurting his feelings? I have a strong feeling he’ll take it the wrong way if this request is presented to him, so until then, I will remain quiet with fear… but how long can I even do that?
It is currently 4:47AM, my roommate still isnt home because she is studying…and I’m studying for finals…